Living with ADHD, I’ve found it incredibly challenging to manage everything on my to-do list. My brain works on its own rhythm – it prioritizes tasks based on motivation and the moment rather than deadlines or practical needs.
Between a demanding job, a long list of personal goals, and a drive to improve in so many areas (science, sports, reading, nutrition), my to-do list is always packed. But despite my ambitions, just handling the basics – like the tasks my boss asks of me – can feel daunting. It’s not even about going above and beyond or showing initiative; it’s just about keeping up with what’s expected. And sometimes, even that feels like a mountain.
Distractions Everywhere
I also struggle to follow a straightforward sequence of tasks. For instance, I might start tidying the laundry, but as soon as I finish that, I spot the fireplace and think, “Oh, I should start a fire!” And just like that, I’m off on a completely unrelated task. Before I know it, hours have passed, and I’ve barely made a dent in my original list.
This Week’s Struggle
This week, I had two tasks I needed to complete. One was new and shouldn’t have taken more than an hour. The other was a bigger project I’ve been putting off for a while. It’s now Friday at 3 PM, and neither of them is done. I have friends coming over at 6 PM, so working over the weekend isn’t an option.
Come Monday, I’ll have to explain this to my boss. And it’s moments like these that bring up the big questions: If I can’t handle the basics, how can I be ambitious, push myself further, learn new things, and achieve more? Right now, I can’t even do what everyone else manages to do.
ADHD or Just an Excuse?
Sometimes, I wonder: is this because of my ADHD? Or am I using it as an excuse? Is there something else holding me back? Or is it just laziness?
Finding a Better Way to Organize My Mind
Whatever the answer, I know I need to work on organizing the backlog of tasks in my mind. If I can find a system that works for me, I might actually start making progress and accomplishing more of what I set out to do.
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